As terrifying as terror is

Recently the situation in my city is not doing well concerning safety. I don't understand what's the point of this useless "war", i don't even know if it is actually a war, but whatever this is, is scaring the hell out of everybody.
Monterrey used to be a "safe" city, I mean, we could go out at night and stay out 'till late and never be worried about how dangerous it can be, and now it's as simple as: if you don't have to go out, then don't, at any time of the day. There's this things called "Narco Bloqueos" it's like drug lords making a barricade in the streets and not letting anyone through 'till they give up their cars to them, and they just walk around with guns on their hands, 17 years old kids! For Christ sake, this is Monterrey's next generation we're talking about! It really makes me sad to see kids involved with the whole drug dealers and this war. 
Recently the terror has spread all over the state, San Pedro used to be the safest place to be, that's where I live, but surprise! This weekend we had 2 shootings, so basically nobody's safe and I really don't get the point of terrorizing the people, worried parents can never be at peace, I don't even go out because I don't want to worry my mother, and to be honest I'm kind of freaked out myself. 
Fortunately for me I do have a plan, I always have a plan, and it's not to run away but to stay safe and make my own life, start over, in New York City! Let's see how that goes. New York have always been my dream and now it seems even more right to be there and not here, I'll let you know if everything goes as planned! In the meanwhile I'll be writing more from this crappy city. Cheers!

All I hear is bah, blah, blah

What's your level of concentration when someone tells you something that you have no interest in AT ALL?! Mine is negative89327457208, yeah, I pretend that I listen by looking at them and nodding once or twice but, my mind, is in Jupiter! I don't have to be thinking in something interesting, anything is better than listening to a lame LAMEEE story, like, let's say, while your eyes are glued to the other persons eyes (pretending to listen) behind him you see a small ant climbing the wall.. my mind goes THERE 'hmm.. that little ant is soo cute and so tiny, well.. after all, it IS an ant, and ants are usually small, hmm, what other animals are that small.. ooh ladybugs, I wish cockroaches were that small, eww cockroaches! DISGUSTING! as disgusting as flies, damn i hate mosquitoes...' and I can go on and on and on thinking about VERY STUPID THINGS! but anything is more interesting than whatever story my dude is telling me.But the worst part is when they POP the question "WHAT DO YOU THINK? WHO IS RIGHT? BUT TELL ME WHYYYYY!!!" that's when I think "SHIT! improvise!!" then I say "I didn't understand that well" or the simplest way out: "Honey! obviously I think exactly the same thing that you think! It's obvious!" and then their response, hopefully, will be "I know right!" and then it all starts again! LAME!

Huh? Did you just say Love?

Ok so how common it is when everybody notices that YOU'RE in love except, well.. YOURSELF! Damn! it happens to me ALL THE TIME, specially now, I don't know why I can't see it, maybe I love to live in denial, love? No, really, LOVE?? Uh.. no.. not for me thanks!

See, i'm not saying that I haven't tried it, I mean, that's exactly why I'm in denial, 'cause I've been there, but this is the 1st time that I ended up broken up and shattered, and I seriously don't think that it has anything to do with karma, I mean, we've all been in relationships were its all sunshine and butterflies at the beginning, but it gets all dark and unsatisfying, and SUFFOCATING, and messed up! I bet everybody have been through that, and as soon as you get out of that crazy, non-healthy relationship you get into another one.. And it's the same thing all over again!

  

All of a sudden you catch a glimpse of sunshine when you see her, or him, and YOU KNOW.. SHIT SHE'S HOT! The first impression is the most important one 'cause that's the one that's gonna help you decide whether to make an approach or not, let's say you decide to walk up to her (or him) and you get all nervous and clumsy, don't you think to yourself "damn, it's been a LONG TIME since the last time I felt this way! It's AWESOME! (even though she's sooo totally laughing at me right now because of my stutter, my clumsiness and God forbid she noticed my sweaty hands!)"? Well, look at the bright side, if she noticed then she's gonna think "Awee HOW CUTE!" or "She's so weird! I think i'm scared, I better run a few blocks 'till i'm somewhere safe!" If your case is option A, well you did it! ASK HER OUT, if it's option B, if you really like her,pray to God you'll see her again soon and act normal, or come with an excuse like "I'm sorry, i'm waaaaaasted!" 

Anyway.. yeah.. that excuse always work, but you have to be charming, and very, VERY charismatic, not in a creepy way though! Ok so let's say you guys start talking and then you exchange numbers! Congratulations, you're less than half there! :D YES! you should be happy! Probably the only accomplishment you have made in you WHOLE PATHETIC LIFE! So be proud! A day goes by and you call her, you go out, well of course you're nervous, make sure to change your shirt if you sweat it all over before you even get out of the house! So, you go pick her up, or you meet here somewhere and as it turns out SHE'S NOT ONLY HOT! SHE'S WONDERFUL, talented, intelligent, has a fashion sense, and everything you like! So basically, at first instance, she's PERFECT! She's the one I wanna be with!- Some people don't get that feeling the first date, but I certainly do -  Later on if it all goes well, everything gets a little bit sexier, and sexier, and SEXIER! So yeah, you basically end up in the bedroom and you say it again, SHE'S PERFECT, I want more of her! So, what i'm saying is: At this point, if everything you've read in this note have happened to you then you're SCREWED! 

Yeah, 'cause you may be feeling all this but how do you know for sure that she feels that way too, she could be saying nice things to you just to get more passionate, one can NEVER KNOW until you get way in TOO DEEP! And then it is too late to get out and you'll be hangin' for her for a loooong time, even though she doesn't want anything else to do with you but just plain sex! Or a summer lovin' story! Or something to brag about with her friends like: "OMG you guys! I went to Monterrey this summer and I hooked up with the prettiest girl!" But that's it, no emotional feelings involved. This is sort of my most recent love story, It didn't happen that way exactly but sure I ended up like the little guy with the rope around his neck :p.. Yeah, in case YOU haven't noticed, i'm VERY dramatic! So in the meanwhile, I still want her! It's been 2 months and I dont want anyone else! So right now, love is not on my side! 

No writing skills at all

Ok, so.. I'm so very new at this, this is my first Blog ever! and I really dont know what to share, I need to practice my writing skills (really, this is for a major purpose) so please, please, pleeeease if you have any tips for me feel free to post!